HOWKER Pat September 15, 2009. This three years have not been easy, I've been fine when people ask, To all the world I'm coping, They don't know It's just a mask. My heart still aches with sadness, My secret tears still flow, For what it meant to love you, No one will ever know. Although my world is mixed up with tears, God bless you, Pat, Thank you for all the wonderful years. Love from your loving husband, Peter. xxx